The Biggest Untruth of New MotherhoodPosted: December 14, 2014
I have been told many lies about raising Babykins.
Okay, “lies” might be a bit harsh–they are more like untruths. Untruths stated with such certainty that it’s hard not to be crushed when they don’t happen. Things like:
“Just wear her in a carrier! She’ll be content and you’ll be able to get things done.”
“It’ll get easier at 6 weeks.”
“Nursing is great because you can sooth your baby.”
“Let sleeping babies lie” and “She can’t be hurt by crying.”*
Then there’s the biggest untruth of all:
“Trust you instincts. You’re her mother, you’ll know what’s best for her.”
Because I don’t know what’s best for her.
I don’t know if I have an especially fussy baby or if I’m simply not coping. I don’t know if she has acid reflux, gas issues, or typical baby tummy troubles. I don’t know when she’s tired and hungry, tired and gassy, or tired and just won’t sleep.
The not knowing is almost paralyzing. And that’s why yesterday–despite my nearly dry prayer life–I found myself crying while bouncing with a fussy Babykins on the exercise ball and begging God to have mercy on both of us.
*These may be true if Babykins wasn’t so small and gained weight faster.